We’re moving!

No, not moving house again-

I’m now going to be posting over here at Zoeprose. It has been a great few years blogging here, but I am excited for the new look! All my old posts are going to stay here on Butterflies and Roses, but have also been taken across to the new domain. If you get email notifications, then you don’t need to do anything- you’ve been transferred over already.

If you subscribe to this blog now, you will miss out on new posts, so head over to the new one instead!

I’d love to see you there, thank you so much for reading.

Currently

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At the moment, I am…

sorting… all those awkward things we have unpacked. Things which have been really simple are those that just go back into the places they were before- awkward things have been things from our study-spare room-storage space. Shelves going down, new ones going up and a smaller room just mean things are a big higgledy piggeldy in places.

smiling… at photos of Phoebe from her expeditions with Daddy yesterday, and Simeon rolling all over the place, trying to eat anything he shouldn’t (paper, cords, all moved!)

trying… to get Simeon to sleep for longer stretches at nights, resulting in exhaustion and not much blogging to speak of! Out of a do-what-works attitude, I had been pulling him into bed when he woke in the night to feed, especially in the chaos of doing a degree, moving and whatnot. The last two weeks I have been getting up when he wakes, and either getting him back off to sleep or feeding him in their room before putting him down. This started with him waking four or five times between his bedtime and morning, and *dont want to speak too soon* but this has been improving.

loving… the beautiful September weather while it has lasted, with warm breezes and fresh air that I want to inhale deep. The leaves haven’t yet turned here and so the sweet farewell of summer is fading away.

wondering… how my little girl is moving up into 3-4 year old clothes, and how fast baby-dom passes. I know it is Josh’s tall-ness which makes them grow out of clothes that much faster, but still- they’re only two and a half and six months!

planning… a few changes in these parts, once I actually have the chance to get it all just right! The indecisive, perfectionist in me knows that it could be a little bit longer until anything actually gets changed on the blog. I’m really excited to change things a bit, and want to do it all right now,  but I know it will take a little time.  I also have a number of posts waiting in the wings, but again, it is a case of when I get a chance.

writing… some goals down for October. Now that things are a bit more settled in the new place, and we’re kind of getting into a weekly routine, I thought it was time to challenge myself a bit. Time seems to run away, especially with little ones to chase after, and I want to be intentional about how I spend my time so I avoid flipping through things on the internet and not doing what I really wanted.

painting… the walls (or half walls, under the dado rail) in our lounge, duck egg, whilst Simeon napped and Phoebe went on a daytrip to London with Josh to the Natural History Museum. I was going to have a nap instead, but couldn’t fall asleep! Isn’t that always the way though!

looking… forward to autumn, but dreading the length of time that the cold sticks around for (like, until next April..)

loving… a new approach to my wardrobe thanks to Unfancy – bring on Autumn clothes!

 

Refreshing

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At the moment I’m reading a book (okay, a Kindle book!) called Desperate: Hope for moms who need to breathe and it is just exactly what I needed right now, at this place and season of life. I read about it on one of my favourite blogs, ever, Your Wishcake, and knew that it was going to have to be the top of my reading list.

At the end of a long day of mothering, when all is finally still and quiet in the house, I am finding that the best thing for me to do is to curl up with my Kindle and read another chapter of this book. It is rest in the best way- setting me up for another day of mothering, encouraging me, challenging me, teaching me fresh things and reminding me of things I already know. I’m nearly three-quarters of the way through and I am dreading finishing, honestly, although I expect I will just go back through and read it again. I have highlighted most of it already, which probably defeats the point in highlighting.

Being a stay at home mum to two little tiny ones can honestly be quite a challenge. I found it really tough in Phoebe’s first year- being alone with a small person who needs watching 24 7 and who can communicate in a very limited way is quite a draining adjustment from any ‘normal’ life previous to that! As she’s grown and Simeon has been born the challenges have changed, and I am better suited to some challenges than others. It is a massive learning process for me, not just the baby who is learning how their body and the world works. It is also really amazing and wonderful, to have the privilege. Parenting, mothering is by far hardest, most rewarding, challenging and wonderful thing. Shaping small people, and shaping them in a way that will show them who God is, and glorify Him in the way I do it is quite the challenge. There have been times that I’ve felt lost, alone, tired and worn out. Reading other parent’s blogs, seeing their lives pan out over social media has really encouraged me at times I have felt a bit alone and at a loose end, but reading this book has encouraged me above and beyond that, with really truthful, helpful words.

Each chapter has honest reflections from Sarah Mae and Sally from their own experience of mothering, and the topic covered, and a few bits of Scripture to look up and some thoughts of things you can do at the end, to practically put things into action. Reading it has been the most refreshing thing, to know that I am not, and have not been alone in what I have been doing, thinking and feeling, and being refreshed to get up each day with new joy and intention and a better attitude towards the eternally important task which is at hand. It has been like breathing one big sigh of relief.

I am pretty bad, when reading eagerly through a book like I am, at doing the questions and action points at the end, but I have decided to dedicate an evening to go through them all and write them down once I have read the whole thing. If you have children at home, I would recommend a read- you can usually read the free sample on Amazon to see if you like it anyway- and if you may have children in the future, put it on the ‘to-read’ list!

PS. I was going to call this post ‘Desperate’, but this book is making me feel so refreshed that it was a much better fit!

Six months with Simeon

Simeon, we’ve reached six months! You’re a delight, you love to smile, kick around on the floor and to be around Phoebe. A new adventure this month has been trying lots of food, and you’re so so keen! We are still working on the sleeping, and getting used to what life looks like in a new house and a new place. Keep growing and doing well, little man.

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You are..

squeezing into some 6-9 month babygros and vests still but outgrowing them fast

loving eating food, and launch yourself at spoons, and work intently on food that’s put in front of you. You can easily eat toast fingers, pasta, breadsticks and things by yourself, although you get cross when you drop things and can’t get as much ‘chewed’ as you want to.

sharing a room with Phoebe, but still waking in the night when you end up lying next to me! You are in the big cot and loving the space to kick around. Sometimes you end up on your front or just twisted around from where you were left.

getting lots of fluffy hair- we saw friends from Sheffield at a wedding last weekend and your abundance of hair was commented on!

dribbling lots and still working on getting that tooth through.

sitting nicely in the high chair and bumbo, and can sit unsupported sometimes

much better now, but you had your last, overdue 4 month jabs the other week. You were ok with the injections themselve but got horrible temperatures for the rest of the week. I’m so thankful you’re back to your normal self now.

obsessed with phones and remotes and trying to eat paper if you’re anywhere near any. You get very cross and upset when the paper is taken off you!

flapping your arms lots when you’re excited

sitting in the ‘big’ seat on the pram now, rather than the lying down newborn bit

blowing raspberries- Phoebe thinks it’s hilarious and says ‘no blow barsbies’ whilst laughing manically

loving exploring people’s faces with your hands, but Phoebe doesn’t like it when you grab onto her hair!

feeding four times in the day, then again at 10 or 11. You’re eating with us at most meals if you’re awake!

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Sunday musings

23. Specially chosen

This week I got an iphone, and I have also been musing again over the use and function of social media and the ways technology affects life. I want my use of these things to be productive, adding to life, not somehow rose-tinting what is there or causing myself to be wistful about other people’s blessings. I don’t want to hide away from life either, spending time on my phone instead of interacting with those around me.
In that spirit, I’ve been fairly selective about what apps I’ve put back onto this new phone- at the moment my social media is all on the ipad, and I’ve got that in a separate place so I’m not tempted to keep picking it up all day. On my phone is instagram which I’ve carefully curated, plus some new favourites- the She Reads Truth app, and Spurgeon Morning and Evening (as well as the youversion Bible app, which also has lots of great Bible reading plans). All free!
Honestly, I’ve been ‘trying’ for months to read the Bible more, or more in depth rather than just reading the words and ticking that off my mental list. This week I prayed that I would be able to saturate myself in the Word, and honestly I can tell the difference. (My week itself has been the usual mix of joys and trials!) I feel that I am so much closer to God, I know Him better and I’m actually in a place to be able to hear what He might be saying to me. How important is that in a relationship?! It’s pretty key, and since my relationship with my maker, the one who knows me inside and out despite all my faults loves me unconditionally is the most important, I really want this to be the case.
This morning at church we were thinking about Exodus 20:3, (You shall have no other Gods before me). It’s so easy in this modern day to read about the Israelites, and the idols that were made and worshipped instead of God, and thing ‘oh, we don’t make statues, or worship other things, I’m doing fine.’ But that phone, in my hands, those things I spend all my time doing, or thinking about doing, those people who I spend all my time thinking about? They’re not bad things, they’re things God made. But putting them before Him, turns them into a god, a distraction. I know this, yet I need to be reminded of it over and over again because my natural tendency is to put those barriers up between me and God. Anyway, this tuned perfectly with this entry from Spurgeon’s morning and evening that I read this week:
“God is jealous.”
Nahum 1:2

Your Lord is very jealous of your love, O believer. Did he choose you? He cannot bear that you should choose another. Did he buy you with his own blood? He cannot endure that you should think that you are your own, or that you belong to this world. He loved you with such a love that he would not stop in heaven without you; he would sooner die than you should perish, and he cannot endure that anything should stand between your heart’s love and himself. He is very jealous of your trust. He will not permit you to trust in an arm of flesh. He cannot bear that you should hew out broken cisterns, when the overflowing fountain is always free to you. When we lean upon him, he is glad, but when we transfer our dependence to another, when we rely upon our own wisdom, or the wisdom of a friend—worst of all, when we trust in any works of our own, he is displeased, and will chasten us that he may bring us to himself. He is also very jealous of our company. There should be no one with whom we converse so much as with Jesus. To abide in him only, this is true love; but to commune with the world, to find sufficient solace in our carnal comforts, to prefer even the society of our fellow Christians to secret intercourse with him, this is grievous to our jealous Lord. He would fain have us abide in him, and enjoy constant fellowship with himself; and many of the trials which he sends us are for the purpose of weaning our hearts from the creature, and fixing them more closely upon himself. Let this jealousy which would keep us near to Christ be also a comfort to us, for if he loves us so much as to care thus about our love we may be sure that he will suffer nothing to harm us, and will protect us from all our enemies. Oh that we may have grace this day to keep our hearts in sacred chastity for our Beloved alone, with sacred jealousy shutting our eyes to all the fascinations of the world!

So there are some of my musings from this week. I’ve also been getting loads of practical, spiritual advice from a book I’m reading at the moment, so I will share more about that soon.